Roller Coaster

I have been up since 3 AM (it's now 7AM) pondering life. Anyone who's married knows that it's not necessary to visit Cedar Point for the thrill ride of your life. The Millennium Force has NOTHING on the roller coaster of love.

I am writing this blog because Marc and I are obviously in one of our "low peaks" of marriage. He said (yes, I woke him up at 5AM to "talk") that there should be a class offered in high school about parenting. A class to prepare you. I honestly think the parenting part is easy. It just kind of comes naturally. I think a class needs to be offered, better yet...REQUIRED, that prepares everyone for marriage.

I, personally, have never spent restless nights pondering about my children (I am sure those days are sure to come when they enter their teenage years). On the other hand, I have spent MANY of nights (we've been together for almost nine years...sheesh) questioning my relationship. Pros and cons...needs and desires...likes and dislikes...happy/unhappy...the list could go on and on.

No, there needs to be something required for people to watch or listen to before they say "I DO". I'm not saying that I regret my decision by any means, BUT I sure would have liked to have been prepared for how selfless one must be in order to have a successful marriage. I mean, I am a VERY selfish individual. Being a good mom comes naturally to me, but being a "good" wife...now that takes effort. You can't just decide you don't want to be a mom anymore, walk away, and start over with new kids. BUT, too easily can you just decide you don't want to be married anymore, meet someone new, and start all over.

What people don't stop to think about is that EVERY relationship has its battles. The positives you experience in your current relationship may not be present in your next relationship. Are you willing to lose the things that DO make you happy??? I'm NOT.