Peditini

I really miss my Mer Mer :(. I feel like we NEVER get to see each other anymore. It’s not just that we don’t “make” the time, but I feel like our paths have really drifted apart. It’s so different as compared to last year…when we were practically in sync. We would even end up behind each other when we were driving to drop off or pick up the kids from school…it was weird. That doesn’t happen anymore :(. The “newness” is gone and I don’t think either of us have the energy to put forth the effort. Why can’t things just stay easy and “UN”comfortable? I took her out for a peditini (a pedicure and a martini) this morning to celebrate her birthday. We were both drunk by noon lol. It was so nice catching up and “bitching” together. I am sure we gave the girls servicing us an ear full lol (we happened to BOTH be pissed at our husbands today). Bitching over the same old shit of course, guys are idiots…

I struck out again last night :(. I wonder if that is one of the things that keep me going?...having absolutely NO control, yet wanting it more than anything (I think ;). I HATE being rejected!!! I fear the day when all “hope” is lost…

So, as much as I loved the little buzz I had earlier, I feel so tired now. Ugh…I just want to sleep the day away, BUT pick up is in about an hour. Guess I better start slamming down the coffee.
I LOVE this picture. It was taken in March 2009 at the kids' school auction. I think there was a time that she made me more happy than ANYONE...well, any other adult at least ;)~