~2010~

I just can’t get over that it is the year 2010…it is really creeping me out. It’s not the “new year” that’s bothering me, it’s the whole “decade” thing. They kept referring to the start of a new decade on TV last night and it really got my mind going…so much so that I had a hard time putting it to rest while I lay in bed. I couldn’t get the last night of 1999 out of my head.

I remember it like it was yesterday. Everyone had their Y2K fears about the world ending…BIG, bad, scary things were supposed to take place on the Las Vegas strip. What else do twenty years olds do BUT go there ;). It was Jessica, her boyfriend (I think), my boyfriend at the time, and some of his friends. It was so crowded, and now that I look back I realize how stupid it was to go there.

But anyways, that’s not the point. What I remember most was being young and clueless. I had so many dreams and aspirations. I had NO idea that that I would be pregnant in a year and a half (by a guy different than my current boyfriend no less), dropped out of college, AND living clear across the country in good old Michigan…the list could go on and on. And that’s just a small part of this past decade…like year one of ten.

When I think about everything else I did during the last ten years I can’t help but sit back in aww. What’s left…I mean, what the hell am I going to do during the NEXT ten? I feel like I have already done everything there is to do…that’s important anyway. It’s obviously pointless to think about, because everything will end up NOT going according as planned.

I can only hope that in ten years I can look back again with no regrets as I did last night. I will have a 13, 16, and 17 year old so I will probably have lost all my sanity by then ;) I can only hope that I have a POSITIVE and close relationship with ALL of them. I am sure I will be even sadder than I was last night because by then they will all be big :(. I wish they didn’t have to grow so fast :((((. If only moments like last night could last forever…